this week: i'm moving on up- to the cold side

this is how landon feels about the car

this week

i'm packing up all as much as justin will let me of my precious things [you remember how much i love my things right?] in large cardboard boxes, putting them on a truck and hoping that i don't forget anything important. [oh HOW will i survive without my blender? my decorative throw pillows? all of landon's vehicles?] i was so delusional 2 years ago.

we are getting our new car serviced to make sure it's up to par to travel 450 miles to carson [that's almost 8 hours with landon stops] then take me home and back when i get too homesick.

we are signing at the bank on our said new car.

then have to take it to the dmv and register it- oh the joys of adulthood!

i am going to try to squeeze in last play dates with landon's friends and my girlfriends, wishing we didn't have to say goodbye to our social life for 6 months.

justin is attending his second to the last game of the rebel season and wondering how they'll ever survive without him.

we are having dinner with justin's old boss at a fancy restaurant, savoring the time without landon knowing it's our last for 6 months.

don't judge me by my dirty cookie sheet
judge me by the depends box

we are going to drive those 450 miles with 2 cars [maybe 3- or a trailer, not quite sure] and hope that baby einsteins in the backseat is enough to keep our little baby happy.

i am going to try to be optimistic about life- ya for time alone with my thoughts! ya for time with my music! ya for making new friends! ya for snow! ok i just can't muster that one people...

this week

i am not going to cry as we pull away [twss].

i am not going to mourn the loss of my stuff but look forward to a fun adventure... because it is fun to get away and try something new and different, even if it is for 6 months.

i am not going to wish i could go to book club on saturday. i didn't even finish the book [gone with the wind: spoiler alert, i hated the movie and i hated the book, the LONG LONG LONG book].

i am not going to cry as i say goodbye to my mommy. because i'm not as bad as devin [but pretty close, let's me honest]. it's so different from how i was feeling last time.

this week is about change.