but when the day got closer, i really started freaking out. ever since porter's birth, i've been having a harder time emotionally then usual. especially with my mom moving, i've been somewhat of a mess. the night before the surgery, landon went over to his mema's house for a sleepover. we reported to the hospital at 6am sharp- but that meant a fasting baby since 3am. he was not a fan of being told he couldn't nurse but thankfully he took it better then landon would have at that age. waiting in the back for the surgeon, i was feeling a wave of emotions. it really made me think about the atonement and what our heavenly father sacrificed for us. he loved his son- so much. he didn't want him to have to suffer but he let it happen. for us- these silly people who make the most ridiculous mistakes- again and again. how it must have pained him to see jesus christ suffer- to let him die - to let him go. i kept holding my baby, kissing his head and saying a million prayers for everything to go alright. isn't it a miracle any baby is born healthy and whole? while we are growing in our mother's tummy, there are a bazillion things that could go wrong and yet, those are the exception. generally peo
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ith a backpack full of tubes and bags- and that's all she's ever known. i asked my sister once if one specific hospital visit was painful and she remarked that no, because of how much she has had done, she rarely fusses over pain. can you imagine that life? the doctors have said she doesn't have a long life expectancy but seeing how hard she fights and how hard her family fights with her- i can't help but doubt their analysis. after going through this singular experience with porter and knowing that my sister goes through this so often- it makes me how but she does it. how can her heart handle seeing her precious baby girl go through so much? i've always known devin was a special girl- she's kind of the odd duck in our family but she's a special duck. i don't know anyone who has more christ like love- that's such a special gift. and despite all the hardship devin has known in life through her own medical problems and her two children, she is the kindest and most loving person i know.
oh- i promise a boy and two girls didn't i? well this gal is proud to announce that my sister is having a baby girl. a baby girl we have all prayed very hard for- and i couldn't be happier.